Tuesday, 1 October 2013
A little post about a bathtub :-)!
You may be think I've lost the plot posting a photo of a bubble bath !
I'm often asked how I cope , how I'm so strong , how can I just brush things of ? Or turn negatives into positives ?!
Well quite simply , when you have a little person to look after and none coming to help . No magic paintbrush or quick fixes . Those are the only things you can do !
Now the bath tub !!!!
My daughter has always been a terrible sleeper , it was over a year before I had a bath to myself again . Can't say I minded love sharing baths with my baby :-).
My daughter went though a phrase of going to bed at 6 pm not long after my marriage broke down . I was living in my mum and dads house and often felt the need to escape . Find a place I could just be .
Whether that be sad , be tired , be happy , just a place for me !
I would run the bath after my daughter had gone to bed and , stay there for asking as I neede.
The bubbles and hot water helping heal wounds that couldn't be seen , I didn't need to answer anyone in the bath ,mi didn't need to remember .
It was the one place in that house I didn't have memory's of our marriage .
It was also a happy place , I would quite often get disturbed by my daughter who wouldn't settle . For the days I didn't feel that super strong to return her to her bed a 20 times. I'd let her join me :-).
A place to sing , share story's , listen to music and steal sneaky hugs !
Of course it was full of toys and bottles . I would get the knee in the belly , water in my eye . But I didn't care .
I think that bathtub help me do a lot of healing and as I had my last bath in there yesterday ( mum and dad are moving). I felt like saying a slient thank you for all those quiet times :-).